I Still Have Jesus!

 THERE IS ONE THING THAT MY ABUSERS COULD NOT TAKE FROM ME. WITH THIS I WILL CONTINUE HEAL AND WALK IN MY NEW JOURNEY NOW. I  WILL BE STRONG AND INSPIRE OTHERS TO KEEP FINDING THEIR HEALING.

WORKING ON MY WRITING TODAY . MY BOOK IS JUST ABOUT COMPLETE NOW. ALL I HAVE LEFT IS TO INSERT MY POEMS AND CLOSING STAEMENTS THEN IT FINALLY DONE. HERE IS A COPY OF ONE OF MY POEMS I WROTE.

 

 

                           I Still Have Jesus!

I have been hurt and abused in so many ways.

Alot has been taken from me during those days.

My pride, my dignity, was taken from my soul.

The woman in me was gone I never felt whole.

The pain, the hurt, inside of me with every cry,

I was giving up and really wanting to just die.

To escape this pain and hurt deep inside of me,

Inside of Heaven is where I was wanting to be.

There’s one thing that was never taken from inside,

My faith in Jesus, so I went on my knees  and cried.

“Jesus take away the pain and evil out of my life”.

Jesus listen to me he heard the cry of a hurting wife.

Embracing me letting me know that he is still here.

I knew right then inside my soul Jesus was still there.

After their abuse and their wickeness I now see,

My faith in Jesus was right there all along inside me.

                                              

Signs of abuse

SIGNS THAT YOU’RE IN AN ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP
Your Inner Thoughts and Feelings Your Partner’s Belittling Behavior
Do you:

  • feel afraid of your partner much of the time?
  • avoid certain topics out of fear of angering your partner?
  • feel that you can’t do anything right for your partner?
  • believe that you deserve to be hurt or mistreated?
  • wonder if you’re the one who is crazy?
  • feel emotionally numb or helpless?
Does your partner:

  • humiliate or yell at you?
  • criticize you and put you down?
  • treat you so badly that you’re embarrassed for your friends or family to see?
  • ignore or put down your opinions or accomplishments?
  • blame you for their own abusive behavior?
  • see you as property or a sex object, rather than as a person?
Your Partner’s Violent Behavior or Threats Your Partner’s Controlling Behavior
Does your partner:

  • have a bad and unpredictable temper?
  • hurt you, or threaten to hurt or kill you?
  • threaten to take your children away or harm them?
  • threaten to commit suicide if you leave?
  • force you to have sex?
  • destroy your belongings?
Does your partner:

  • act excessively jealous and possessive?
  • control where you go or what you do?
  • keep you from seeing your friends or family?
  • limit your access to money, the phone, or the car?
  • constantly check up on you?

Physical abuse and domestic violence

When people talk about domestic violence, they are often referring to the physical abuse of a spouse or intimate partner. Physical abuse is the use of physical force against someone in a way that injures or endangers that person. Physical assault or battering is a crime, whether it occurs inside or outside of the family. The police have the power and authority to protect you from physical attack.

Sexual abuse is a form of physical abuse

Any situation in which you are forced to participate in unwanted, unsafe, or degrading sexual activity is sexual abuse. Forced sex, even by a spouse or intimate partner with whom you also have consensual sex, is an act of aggression and violence. Furthermore, people whose partners abuse them physically and sexually are at a higher risk of being seriously injured or killed.

It Is Still Abuse If . . .

  • The incidents of physical abuse seem minorwhen compared to those you have read about, seen on television or heard other women talk about. There isn’t a “better” or “worse” form of physical abuse; you can be severely injured as a result of being pushed, for example.
  • The incidents of physical abuse have only occurred one or two times in the relationship.Studies indicate that if your spouse/partner has injured you once, it is likely he will continue to physically assault you.
  • The physical assaults stopped when you became passiveand gave up your right to express yourself as you desire, to move about freely and see others, and to make decisions. It is not a victory if you have to give up your rights as a person and a partner in exchange for not being assaulted!
  • There has not been any physical violence. Many women are emotionally and verbally assaulted. This can be as equally frightening and is often more confusing to try to understand.

Source: Breaking the Silence: a Handbook for Victims of Violence in Nebraska

Facts On Domestic Violence

One in every four women will experience domestic violence in her lifetime.1 An estimated 1.3 million women are victims of physical assault by an intimate partner each year.2 85% of domestic violence victims are women.3 Historically, females have been most often victimized by someone they knew.4 Females who are 20-24 years of age are at the greatest risk of nonfatal intimate partner violence.5 Most cases of domestic violence are never reported to the police.

Unfortunately I was one of the ones who never reported or cried out. I suffer from agoraphobia and social anxiety with panic , pstd. bipolar, and depression . This is caused by the abuse i have encountered. For to many years I have isolated myself in shame.

I know calling is to inspire victims to get out and speakout of abuse in your lives. noone should have to suffer as I did. No one should every live in fear.

Im reaching out to keep inspiring the victims  out of this evilness. Please feel frees to share your story or just for inspiring encouragement.

LET GO, LET GOD

LET GO, AND LET GOD…(short prayer when things are getting overwhelmed)

If you are troubled,

“Let Go and Let God”

take charge of your life for you, and

however dark life’s shadow seem,

 

Today I let go and I let God

Take charge of this life of mine.

Now in the dark corners of my soul,

His light is beginning to shine

All of the cares and worries that

I have carried around so long

He has lifted them from my shoulders,

and filled my heart with love.

Problems that were overwhelming

suddenly seem very small,

and come what may, starting today,

I know I can handle them all.

 

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Jesus heals me and he has walks with me

I have renewed myself in Christ to help me heal. I suffer many mental illness due to truama of abuse in my life. He has helped me find my way out of the wicked life I have been trpped in. For 25 years of abuse . I have hid my pain didnt know how to speak out to others. I cried to Jesus to help me to take my hand and guide me through my suffering.

He has answered me I got out of the violence of physical/emotional abuse and a violent rape in my marriage and from my past abuse as a child.

Many times I gave up on the Lord asking “Why me, why do you want me to suffer in this life”.  I know my answers now and i will commit myself to the Lords plan with me. I will speak through Jesus to others and help them find Jesus in their own healing…

O’ Father Almighty, my maker in Heaven, I have question my own faith in you many times I allowed the wickness and evil in my life blind me from you. I understand my suffering I handed all for your son to carry .I reached for his had to walk my journey to your plan to devine destine. I will keep reaching to other to help find faith in you for their own destine with spiritual healing of your word. I will do this In Jesus Name I pray AMEN!!

Miss Treated And Forgotten

This is just a poem I wrote when i was hurting. Sometimes when you just write your feelings dow you acually are getting them out Your releasing some hurt and some pain this way..I find when i write I do get relief, But at the same time I still felt alone.

We are not alone . Reach out to someone who has the same pain you will see just sharing your story will help you see how many people are really abused out there.

Please post your feeling here whether a poem or just venting share your feeling ask for prayers.

–MISS TREATED AND FOGOTTEN—

 Spending years doing what i know best, then the lord puts me thru his test.

 A test of  my own strength the hardest test, two things that i never knew best.

 Being a woman my mother has taught me, to keep a strong happy family;

 Something she forgot to teach me well, that time in life can feel like hell.

 People forget just how much you do ,that feel like its thing a mother is suppose to;

 Pushing her feelings and shoved being aside, this is the time a woman loses pride.

She loses the strength and  faith she once had, as she grow alone and very sad’.

 These are feeling thats grow so rotten, when you feel mistreated and forgotten

Healing Through our Lord Scriptures

I am the LORD who heals you” — Exodus 15:26 Anyone who’s paying any attention while reading the Gospel accounts of Jesus has a hard time avoiding the impression that Jesus healed people of physical illnesses. Not only did Jesus do it early and often (so often that during His life, His healings were seen as a trademark of His work), but He is reported in Scripture to have given his followers the ability to do the same, and more.

Jesus did his healings in the context of Isaiah 53:5 (according to Matt 8:17). That’s an atonement passage. It’s tempting to simplistically link all healing with the Lord’s Supper, and treat healing as a fait accomplice, as if it’s already there for the asking. But the Eucharist is about Jesus’ presence, which is not only an ‘already’, but a ‘not-yet’. The body and blood ‘already’ were shed to save us, and believers in Christ are ‘already’ a part of the Kingdom of God, but we await his ‘not-yet’ return ( 1 Corinthians 11:26). That’s why there isn’t perfect healing in this life, any more than there is perfect living. The Christian faith does not deny brokenness. It denies that brokenness has the last word. Healing is a foretaste of a Kingdom that has not yet come in its fullness.

Marital rape

Definition: Marital rape is any unwanted sexual acts by a spouse or ex-spouse, committed without consent and/or against a person’s will, obtained by force, or threat of force, intimidation, or when a person is unable to consent. These sexual acts include intercourse, anal or oral sex, forced sexual behavior with other individuals, and other sexual activities that are considered by the victim as degrading, humiliating, painful, and unwanted. What is Marital Rape?  Marital rape occurs when your spouse forces you to take part in certain sex acts without your consent. It is a form of intimate partner violence, i.e., an abuse of power by which one spouse attempts to establish dominance and control over the other. Research shows that it can be equally, if not more, emotionally and physically traumatizing than rape by a stranger.  While every state has its own laws on the subject, broadly defined, marital rape includes “any unwanted intercourse or penetration (vaginal, anal, or oral) obtained by force, threat of force, or when the wife is unable to consent.” If you have experienced rape by your spouse, you have the right to make a police report. Know that you are not alone and can call the National Sexual Assault Hotline at 800-656-HOPE for help at any hour of the day. You can also visit the National Sexual Assault Online Hotline. Types of Marital Rape Force-Only Rape – Partners use only the amount of force necessary to coerce their spouses. Battering may not be characteristic of these relationships. Battering Rape – Partners rape and batter their spouses. The battering may happen concurrently, before or after the sexual assault. Obsessive Rape – Partners use torture or perverse sexual acts against their spouses. They are willing to use force to carry these activities out. Source: License to Rape: Sexual Abuse of Wives by D. Finklehor & K.